♥Thursday, July 30, 2009,
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i sometimes really doubt what my parents want from me.. tell the truth or they rater want to see me lying to them? all the time when i am telling the truth they will doubt me like today... they practially called yeemay phone but he insisted that he had called mine.. do you know all this little things that you do makes me wanna run away from home... this home is just like a hotel to me... no more hard feelings i just come home sleep bathe and i go out... where is the love that i used to feel? dad i am disapointed in you. I just dont know how to explain but my heart just freezed when you shouted me on the phone when i am not lying... how many times must i tell you... i dun wanna lie to you.. of all the things i tell you everything comes from deep within my heart... that moment that i found out that you doubted my words really make me feel awful..
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♥Monday, March 9, 2009,
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omg !! luo is so damn HOT ~~
♥Thursday, February 19, 2009,
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i am waiting for a very important call...............
"Should I smile because you’re my friend or cry because that’s all we’ll ever be?"
♥Tuesday, October 7, 2008,
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Omg.. this teacher is fucking accurate la he is a psychologist in a clinic .. He practically hit the nail.. he said that I am aggressive in the way that I am sort of over protective of myself as I am afraid that I will get hurt. The only difference is I do it in the form of words . He said that I have family problems that I do not disclose to anyone before. . its like so true la wth!! I fucking hate people that can read my mind!!! Even ling also agree that I am aggressive she say my the way I talk is very defencive. She said I don’t want to let people know what I mean and how I feel but I unintentionally show the weak side of me in front of people. Andrea says so too .. hmm maybe I should try to change .. like hide my feelings in other form (:
♥Monday, October 6, 2008,
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I felt like a bitch a fucking bitch right now …
Laughing to cover my sorrows
Cannot even fall asleep yesterday night
What am I thinking?
Who am I thinking?
Why the fuck am I doing this
Having this pain on my chest right now!
Haa.. my lovely classmates took my phone !!!! and I did’nt even realize
PRANK me siol ..
I felt that in our class we are starting to form cliques already
This might be good or bad
It really depends on what we see it as
♥Sunday, October 5, 2008,
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WHY must you have the same things that I have
Why do u do things that is in my mind before I can act
Why must you be a bastard?
Why must you be so annoying?
I am trying to ignore your presence
But I could not
Why am I typing this
Isn’t this makes me like a bitch too ???
♥Saturday, October 4, 2008,
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Woke up at 7plus today but I was so tired that I continued to sleep hee.. sister joshy called me at 9 I was like oh shit I am late so I poped up of my bed when I hung up the phone and went to bathe… I was like josh call ym !! I think she is sleeping also … haa so he guai guai go call … den I think there is some miscommunication btw us 3 of us .. so haa .. I was waiting and waiting but no one appear .. I was like something was wrong so I called ym and yupps comunicatin break down . so I headed to nyjc alone..i never play ..lol .. I was like slacking all the way … till lunch time .. had kfc and bus-ed home (:
Slept again till 7 and then went out for dinner = fat !!
But I dun care liao ..I am going to jian fei after Os (:
♥Friday, October 3, 2008,
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Wohooo .. I PONNED maths lesson again today !!! and I went to k boxxxx !!! spend like 50 dollars dunno on what can .. my $$ is flowing away like running water.. I cannot carry on like that liao .. but I cant help it this is post exam stress (excuses) !! spending $$ on food and entertainment !! chatted with friends and slack till 8 plus .. suddenly my chest pain and its kinda unbearable!! So I went to bk and sleep till 9.40 den go home.. crashed the bed !!!
♥Thursday, October 2, 2008,
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Today faci gave me a lift from school to town again (: and I was like super earlie I reach there at bout4 plus and I meet … walk around at suntec and guess what I saw fang ru .. chatted for like ½ and hr than that yeemay finally arrive … hunting for food at suntec and marina and ended up eating waraku !! nice !!
♥Wednesday, October 1, 2008,
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Well well well, today woke up kinda earlie like erm 8 plus ..ate dim sum for breakfast (: and went to east coast park to cycle (: den headed to tuk tuk for lunch and super nice … but spicy .. den went to the goat farm but no more goat milk liao = sad ): den like sleep till now … hee going for a jog later (: byeeeeeeeee ..
♥Tuesday, September 30, 2008,
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Today I push away all my appointment with friends and stay at home alone. Haa.. sounds kinda emo but I am not. I just don’t want to spend so much money… haa… on Monday night I accompany lee ping to wait for her friend in fact it is also to burn my time too (: It so happen that her friend is my primary school senior too … haa.. got 2 more extra friend liao (: and and and their interest is about the same as me (: like they like wakeboarding and also volleyball too (: and we agreed that after O level we are going to sign up courses in wakeboarding … haa .. so many things that I wanna do after O level .. argh I am not studying or what so ever = die.. haa .. dunno she got study annot siol … haa.. I have no $$$ liao .. so i needa work ..
♥Monday, September 29, 2008,
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Seriously I really hate guys that go out and complain that they have no money…
♥Sunday, September 28, 2008,
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F1 rock !!!! haaaa
♥Saturday, September 27, 2008,
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Spend the whole sat at marina square..
♥Friday, September 26, 2008,
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Today was tire-ing went back to cchy for my science practical (: I really want to thank the teachers that cared to take out their time for me la .. after prac I needa wait for lim min to finish her prac so that we could go get js de pressie . so I wait in the canteen lor .. den haa saw kang kang and hy (: sat and chatted .. till lim min is done .. in prompt to decision to go to js de house celebrate his bdae.. brought a cake up (: intense headache when I was at the bus.. so upon reaching js de house I slept for a while … den later we played dai di (: den later on they have this pillow fight at js de room .. not be careful I hit js de eye .. and it become sooooo red .. paiseah ar poor boy ..that randy very irritating la keep taking video .. den the last video I dunno that he is taking so I act like myself la ..he go take siol den go and post in youtube .. IRRITAING !! later on went to town to meet chai chin and siao wei.. it was long since we meet-ed each other… she was soooo tired till we talk so little .. had steamboat (:
And I realize something chai chin eat crabs and prawn with gloves!!! And siao wei is a blur sotong .. she take the bus all the way to kallang !! but anw siao wei ar dun think too much kks .. everything is going to turn out fine…. Had dessert at ah chew dessert shop nice la but sinful!!! Calorie is killing me somemore is 11pm liao …Mum did not scold me when I get home siol rare ~~~
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Today was tire-ing went back to cchy for my science practical (: I really want to thank the teachers that cared to take out their time for me la .. after prac I needa wait for lim min to finish her prac so that we could go get js de pressie . so I wait in the canteen lor .. den haa saw kang kang and hy (: sat and chatted .. till lim min is done .. in prompt to decision to go to js de house celebrate his bdae.. brought a cake up (: intense headache when I was at the bus.. so upon reaching js de house I slept for a while … den later we played dai di (: den later on they have this pillow fight at js de room .. not be careful I hit js de eye .. and it become sooooo red .. paiseah ar poor boy ..that randy very irritating la keep taking video .. den the last video I dunno that he is taking so I act like myself la ..he go take siol den go and post in youtube .. IRRITAING !! later on went to town to meet chai chin and siao wei.. it was long since we meet-ed each other… she was soooo tired till we talk so little .. had steamboat (:
And I realize something chai chin eat crabs and prawn with gloves!!! And siao wei is a blur sotong .. she take the bus all the way to kallang !! but anw siao wei ar dun think too much kks .. everything is going to turn out fine…. Had dessert at ah chew dessert shop nice la but sinful!!! Calorie is killing me somemore is 11pm liao …Mum did not scold me when I get home siol rare ~~~
♥Thursday, September 25, 2008,
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GYM was kinda effective yesterday
I think la
Ha
After that acc josh to buy charlotte birthday bdae present
KFC-ED
Yummy
Maths module today
Total flop
I had to admit that I totally suck at maths
Meeted naz after school
Haaa happy chatting ~~
I just realized that I am actually very afraid to face certain stuff
Esp -----
I will just turn away
Ponning school tmr
Haa
But for a good reason ~~
Hee
Sleeping real soooon
♥Wednesday, September 24, 2008,
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I am at woodlands starbucks now
Rotting alone
My schedule for today very super duper packed siol
All very last min
Initially I tot science practical is in the morning
But ytd miss wong says it at 3
Initial plan was to go kbox with my classmates from 2 -7
But now cannot liao
Hmm
But meeting min for movie (pending for reply)
Joshua asked if I wanna go gym annot
All clashes
Movie starts at 4.30
Gyming starts at 4.30
K box 2-7
Practical 3
What the hell right
Hias
Minn replied she say that she can make it for movie
so I go movie
I want nachos
Additional 500cal
Extra workout !!!
I am going to give gym a whack later
After movie (:
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Went for a CE talk just now
First ever CE talk that I never fell asleep
It’s about the days
Erm an authentic Singaporean style gang show
But now directed by jack neo but boi kwang
But the show is going to be down tmr so most probably gona watch with minn <3
Haaa
I weigh myself just now
And guess what
I gain 3 kg
Wth
I so not going to eat tmr …
♥Monday, September 22, 2008,
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Met up with min rand and liqi
Chatted quite a lot of stuff
Haa
Celebrating js bdae this fri
And yes!! I am going to pon school
Like again
Halfway thru jonjon jes weiling and shawn popped by for dinner
Chatted and laugh loads
Haa
Found out something siol
Something that had been hidden for soooooooooo long !!!
Haaas .. still rmb last time I confessed to jon (that stupid prank)
Than that jon thaught it was real
Haaaa
Den I tot that he is ignoring me for months
From sec 2 till sec 4 siol
Guess what he say today
Heee
He said that he got to talk to me la (but I dun rmb tt)
Haaaa..
Hai wo dun dare to prank confess to people
Hahas
All cleared (:
Home sweet home (:
Nights people (:
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U ask me if something had happen to me or rather are you alright
I replied ”no” “I am perfectly fine”
But inside I am screaming
“I am fucking NOT all right”
Can’t you see
I wonder how my days will be like
I wonder if I can survive
I wonder I wonder I wonder and wonder..
♥Sunday, September 21, 2008,
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Woke up in the morning and I went for a jog…
Must improve on my stamina
I wanna join the shape run next year (:
Had kuay chap for breakfast (:
Then headed the park for a jungle trail walk
Hmm fetched my ah ma from market and headed to the goat farm for some goat milk, brought 10 bottles in total….
Visited my uncle in his duck rice stall
Yummy duck rice (:
Home sweet home
Sleeeeeeeeeeep all the way till 9.30
Woke up and went for a jog again
This time hope to shed away the excessive fats in my body
Haa
Tired
Gonna sleep now
Nights
Muakies <3
♥Saturday, September 20, 2008,
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Cousin and niece came to my place
Niece was cute can!! She like xian dan so much la .. till she keep hugging on her la
She still wants me to play with her the hello kitty game..
Haa..
Went back to sleep after awhile
I think things are getting abit complicated in class
Dunno la ..
Maybe I am thinking too much friends are ment to be cherished
Maybe I should’nt have step in to that picture
Maybe all I’ve done is wrong
So wrong that me myself cannot explain
But this is what I’ve chosen to do
So I must shoulder all the consequences
We should end here if not things will get more complicated
It will be kinda weird if I go to school and was group with you again
Lesser motivation for me to go to the school = lesser laughter =lesser fun= BORING
♥Friday, September 19, 2008,
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Went to school as usual (:
Communication module
See the faci I sian ½
I still like my previous faci more
She is demanding !!
I hate it
I want to relax abit also cannot
I was the scribe
Typing like hell
Super long nails made my typing tedious
So I’ve decide to cut it ..
I think that faci is going to give me a B for today
):
Went badminton after class
Play a little nia
Den go eat
ZzZ
Calorie ~~~~
Went home super earlie
8 plus
Den sleep for awhile, till 10 like that
Den I woke up to have my supper
Heee
now i am going to sleep liao ..
bye
♥Thursday, September 18, 2008,
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Hmm … yesterday was tired but fun …
As usual school-ed in the morning
Science
Freaking easy
But I am too lazy to think
So I go with the trend
Saying that it is difficult
Took loads of pictures in classs
Hmm still deciding whether to go to sentosa with classmates on sun annot leah
Nic got training in the morning…
So most probably we will be going in the afternoon..
Think think**
Went josh house to play with oreo (:
Super cute doggie can
Upload pictures soon
On the other blog
After that I headed to city hall to meet pam they all
Haa
Had thai express (:
And ice cream
The ice-cream is super nice !!!
♥Tuesday, September 16, 2008,
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Today’s problem is great as in the problem easy and the faci also good (: he even longpang me to orchard (:
Meeted with xiao wei and shifan (: had ajisen = oishi !!!
Haa .. went back to yishun to meet lim min
Happen to bump into naz again
Get to know his another friend (;
He is kinda hilarious I mean naz friend, he even go chat with my dear la .. using my msn .. den my darling tot I was mad… crapping all the way ..
Its actually a vice-versa thing cos they make me laugh so I make them laugh also
They said they have never been laughing since they leave cchy
I am proud of myself (:
Heee
Gona meet pam pam tmr !!!!!!
I am like yeah !!
Finally after ½ a year !!!!!!!!!!!
Bubu sleeping like now !!
Muakies
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Hmm i love children although they are ANNOYING at times
I would want to have ½ a dozen of babies when I get married
I want to walk down the aisle with a gorgeous white wedding gown (to achieve this I must start to jian fei)** hahas
With gazillions of wishes/blessing from my friends
Moments filled with laughter, friendship and love.
I hope I am the fortunate one with friends who are happy to lend a hand on the morning of the wedding to doll me up
I want yeemay to be my bridesmaid
I will definitely take loads of pictures on that day
After our marriage ..
I hope that we could go to the Maldives for honey moon
Day by day
I hope that my partner will bring me flowers every morning for my breakfast and will kiss me with flowers in his mouth
And lastly spend the rest of our lives together
After marriage I will definitely make time for the both of us for example setting a weekly tradition date for the two of us doing something both of us enjoy like for example take a nice walk together,sip a coffee together in a cozy coffeehouse or something like that. I found out that when I am with my love ones no matter how boring that place is I will still feel damn happy (: really damn happy … I will give each other space and time to work on hobbies and personal interests.Not forgetting to make little romantic gestures and I will definitely compliment him. Appreciate for who they are.I will definitely not threaten divorce and get into bed angry..haa and I will watch his favourite shows with him .I will be honest and never ever keep secret from each other…..
♥Monday, September 15, 2008,
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I wanna be the girl he gives his hoodie to wear & cuddles up next to when its cold, he’ll be the one who comes up behind me, wraps his arms around my waist, catches me off guard & whispers you look beautiful.
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I have found my new laogong !!! haa .. show you guys how “shuai” my laogong is the next time we take pictures kkx (: haa .. its getting complicated.. but too bad this is life (: no one is going to know who this lucky** person this time… under wraps girl-girl relationship again.. I hope I can survive (:
♥Sunday, September 14, 2008,
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I am having a super bad headache right now!!
Unbearable
Sleep 1st blog tomorrow ~~
Nights (:
Muakies
But anyways that day after my cousins wedding lunch I saw someone on my way home .. hahas the person that used to like me siol.. I thought I recognize the wrong person but my doubts are confirmed when I saw him alighting at yishun also .. I think he is also shocked to see me in jurong sia .. some we are like sitting side by side .. haa ..Aiya ok change topic .. went cycling at 11 – 1 plus ..The sun f-king hot sia .. but I like it cos I can get tanned (: hmm.. brought loads of milk <3 can drink for like a week .. went home sleep for a while den go ah ma house.. saw my aunt wtf .. I dun like!! And the worst thing is I am sick and my aunt says why you always come ah ma house you fall sick de .. I was like u think I want to be sick meah!! Fuck la .. i think it’s the house that is dirty that’s why I fall sick ba… I REALLY LOVE MY AH MA !! I NOE SHE CARE FOR ME !! but I hate ppl that is proud and look down on me!!!
♥Saturday, September 13, 2008,
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Boohoo !! Attend cousins wedding today not bad sia just go only jiu got angpao !! haaaa
After that I meet with yuexian and acc to hunt for Xavier pressie at vivo
Brought a bag, a jacket and also a cap for him, all in black
Had super dogs and gelato
Went to the pet shop <3
Saw my favorite mini/toy poodle suuuuuuper cute can !!
I did something bad today and I am super guilty when I was in the pet shop
Shouldn’t have done that but still….
Went to carry lantern with bestie and acc = fun!!
BUT anyways I think I will be ponning 3 days of school this week ..wth ..but all got reason de
Hmmm PAM PAM is back and I am soooooo looking forward to seeing her (:
Okok gona sleep now NIGHTS (:
♥Friday, September 12, 2008,
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I think today’s movie is pretty much nicer than yesterday de Bangkok dangerous !!
Enjoyed my nachos!!!
Like again!!
Have lasagna and honeydew sago
Played candles at yuexian house playgroud
Took 360 pictures!! I am shock that I took so much la!!
Classes today was fine, group with fifi (:
She got this sweet smelling perfume and I am in love with it NOW !!!
I wanna buy ..
Seducing !!
I cant believe what I have done today
I went all over to all the classroom to hunt!!
Hunt for suai ge !!
What the hell la
I also dunno what am I doing
But in the end none at all !!
WHAT THE HELL 16 CLASSES AND NONE !!
Hee guess what ..
I received loads of belated birthday wish and pressie today..
I am like what the, it’s a month before de dai zi liao le leah
But anyways it’s the thoughts that counts (:
Haa thanks friends (:
Loves was finally fine ! and also came to school today
When I was in the café in the afternoon guess who called
Its loves !!
Haa.. so I brought muffin for her to eat lor
Sick ppl must eat more (:
Hee
Ok I got to sleep now mum’s nagging
Muackies an nights (:
♥Thursday, September 11, 2008,
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Tired ~~~
Will be officially un-free from the week after next
Will be mugging at home ): or bk
Movie was greeeeeat today !!!
Haa
Movie-ing tomorrow too (:
But not with my classmates but my sec school friends
♥Wednesday, September 10, 2008,
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Lunched with my classmates today = fun
Was unwell when I was released from school
Went to the gym but did not work out
Was famished brought waffles and 2 bread before heading the gym
Watched 27 dresses while waiting for Joshua
Ate long john silver before heading home
Super full !!
I wanna sleep (:
Muakies
Xian dan here I come (: mummy love you haaaaa
Hugs <3
♥Tuesday, September 9, 2008,
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Ponned School with my babies yesterday so fun can!!!!! Finally I’ve found a group of people that I can clique with so well man!!! And I am so happy with this!! I really <3 my class!!!!! Ooops jus now I was like saying that alfie is abit competitive when I thought he was not in class.. but what the hell he is in class and I think he heard what I say ..hmm.. I don’t know what he will think la its just a casual comment .. haa .. but all in all the faci today is great !!! he looks like the powerpuff professor =) hmm but was satisfied with what I presented today the only flaw is that I read my slide too fast as I was NERVOUS!! Yes Katie is nervous for the 3rd time this semester.. Today very song!! Cos we get to choose our group members!! And as usual I team-ed with my babies today .. but unfortunally fifi was left out cos each group only can have 5 members.. Saded .. mingled with the class during break abit ,they are pretty fine but still did’nt dare to talk to sharmine I think she very fierce sia .. School was giving out free contact lenses today so as a typical Singaporean I went too (: Free coffee too haa so 不拿白不拿!! Spread the news to the class and some of them went down to get the freebies too !!! heeee .. frankly speaking I felt bad today as we threw all the typing to ping and I think she is angry .. cos we gossip,laugh and joke with the rest of the class while she is doing all the work .. sorry ping .. trained home with baoyi .. a pretty straight forward girl (: I don’t know why la but I just don’t like “competing” with people in this class.. I just felt that as long as I have fun jiu can liao.. so not like me right?Compared to the other sem … I just felt that they are great friends to me and I don’t wish to lose them.. Hee and I am now in bk waiting for nazreen to come !!
♥Monday, September 8, 2008,
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I am tired !! I wanna sleep !! I dun want to stay in school !!
Lessons is super boring !!!
Dry !!
Anyone wanna go town ?
I want to pon !!
♥Sunday, September 7, 2008,
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Today = shagged & sick
♥Saturday, September 6, 2008,
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Just came back from the food fair <3
Loads of nice food, hee pictures with jeff
Omg gain weight again !!
Irritating !!!
Went to the basket ball fair too (:
Nice exhibition; free milk heee
Saw NBA star also , freaking tall
Tired I go sleep now (:
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Went to seoul garden for dinner yesterday with my sec school friends <3
Simply love them !!
Dinner was great (:
And now I feel my tummy stretching like those pregnant woman
That feeling is bad !!
I hope I shit soon !!
Crazy taking pictures today
I even went up to a waiter and initiated to take pictures with him, its so not like me la
K whatever
Will be uploading the pictures to my the other blog tomorrow (:
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Omfg !!! I am in the same group as ben again !! wth and this is totally irritating.. 3 days in a row man !! I cant stand him calling me “katieeeeeeeee” its totally irritating and he says that I my name is so act cute.... I am like what the hell !! I am much better den you okay!!! a guy calling yourself bennnnny in your own msn !! I hate it when I am introducing myself to the class he always like to cut in ..And now my classmates come to me and tell me “if people dun know both of you they might even say that you are a couple” I am like wth with him!! I rather go to a PIG !! Friends say already very annoying .. today my faci come to my group and tell my group “I think 3 weeks later there will be a new couple in our class” Katie says” my foot man “!! he !!! I rather die !! Hope I am not going to be in his group the next week!!! But overall I LOVE my new classmates !! all of them rock man!!! Totally (: Xiuhui is happy to go to school !!! I even bother to link my new found friends in my blog !! heee loves and I am happy !!!
♥Friday, September 5, 2008,
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I found out something that I do not find out previously
I actually envy those girls that can secure their friendship so tight-ly years after years.
Maybe the faults lies on me ba .. my character sucks totally and I am working on to changing it (:
I flare up for every single things, I criticize, I put the blame on others, I did not spare a thought for the others, I did not even try a single bit to accept others that wanted to be friends with me, I kept all my doors shut, I did not have the courage to tell my friends where their fault lies .. I am just some freaking coward bitch venting my anger to my blog.. why cant I dun flare up ,why I cant I dun criticize ,why cant I spare a thought for others ? why why why ?
I said ben is irritating but at least he is someone with countless guts and I admire this point that he have.. Athough he is irritating he after all sill have a good point in himself, not like me .. bad in everything !! totally ):
♥Thursday, September 4, 2008,
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女人啊 为和要为了一个不直得你去爱的男人这样对自己呢?
借酒肖愁, 去club给别的男人loot.. 美天喝得那么醉.. 这又和苦呢..
今年是你人生可以算是一个最关健的一年你却选择这样对你自.. A level leah 小姐..
First day of school was great (:
I had a awesome class (:
Woooohoo
New faces-à friendly/outgoing loves (:
Gymed with josh & jeff
Ate MacDonald’s with them rain like dunno what fuck ..
Drenched~~~~
Thus having slight headache now !!!
♥Wednesday, September 3, 2008,
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SLEEPY BLOG TMR(:
♥Tuesday, September 2, 2008,
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Received a msg from darlie sam that she is having a bad bad flu.. so we cancelled our shopping spree ):
Hope she is feeling better now (:
Went back to cchy to practice my practical with yikai.. glad that I still can do it (:
After prac I went to the art room to find minn and acc.. than headed to huiyu’s classroom to find her and xiang hui, went to mac have our lunch and chatted for awhile.. and yikai suggested to watch movie (:
So we called yue xian to ask him help us check the slots (: He told me that there is a comedy called phobia.. so I said okay… but I realized that I never bring enough money so I headed home to get some and i meet them at 3.05 the time when the movie starts … upon walking in I found out that yue xian bluff me its actually a horror movie 4bia .. that one that yeemay and I was super afraid of .. I was like what th hell .. I scared leah .. cling on yue xian but he is more of a hindrance at times.. esp when I am scared and covered my face with my towel .. he keep on describing what’s happening on the screen to me .. But at times he is good as in he tell me when to cover my face as the scariest part is going to be screened ..After the movie I was like busy scolding yue xian la !! irritating !! bluff me .. shop for awhile.. saw nazreen haa.. its like so qiao can (: he shop with us ..headed to pepper lunch .. he is soo good to acc us la .. cos he is fasting .. But soon after he left and went to bishan library .. typical JC students … So min,liqi,yuexian,randy and I chatted at pepper plus till 7 plus and we trained home (: .. each of us went separate ways .. while I acc minn to the interchange saw nazreen again.. like so qiao can .. chatted like hell again until mummy bombed my phone… headed home at bout 9 plus .. eat and sleep again (: hugging xian dan .. hahas she is warm (: woke up from my sweet dreams at 2 plus .. scared !!! I scared that the 4bia ghosts will come and hunt me … I was like so scared la !! I was like I am so not going to watch scary movie again!! All those scary scenes are flashing through my head all the time … finally got into my sleep and guess what I dreamt of junshen .. diaoz when I woke up at 7.30 this morning ..
♥Monday, September 1, 2008,
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Got a sudden urge to scold myself shit ass!! Dunno why ,I just feel sorta out of place..
Everybody is leading their lives as planned and everything goes smoothly but I am like neither here nor there..
The world is fair, its actually up to me to rule my life …
But I just realize that I did nothing but ruin-ing it …
Gym-ed just now for 3 hours hahas .. saw sifan … she is like so qiang can she have a gpa of 3.7 sia Sure get into local u de lor ,but she say 不一定cos her friend got gpa of 4 ..
Total freak can !!!
Going back to chung cheng tomorrow for prac ..
Thanks miss wong for letting us into the school for practice (:
After that meeting I going to vivo to meet my darlie
Carnivore-ing most probably its going to cost a bomb ):
My pocket is bleeding like hell !! Gonna plan my finances soon ..
Pam is coming back like 2 weeks later ..woooohoooo (:
I think she have loads of story to tell us ..
So looking forward to it (:
♥Sunday, August 31, 2008,
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Oops I have made a mistake school starts on wed not on mon ..
I am such a blur queen man
So tmr I am gona to pretend to go to school hehe ..
So I can get xtra pocket $$
Bad..but bobian
Everything must be reorganize
Busy contacting people to change this and change that ):
♥Saturday, August 30, 2008,
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Omfg .. tomorrow is the last day of my holiday already .. fast man ..
I am going to have a new class, a new bunch of friends and etc ..
Not as excited as before…
I LIKE my previous class room location cos there is a canteen right below my class!!!
Hias sian ½ no more food for me already..
Nevermind its also a good thing as I canTRY to slim down and save $$ ..hahas …
No promises
Its just wired why I have a sudden urge of studying after hearing his words hahas, perhaps he is a motivator..
So for now I think that I will most probably force myself to study study and study for the next 10 weeks, for my Olevel and poly (: No more ponning without proper reason … I scrape through cognitive with a gpa of 2,maths with a gpa of 2.5, science with a gpa of 2.5,culture with a 3 and enterprise and aesthetics with 3.. I think I can definitely do better if I never pon as much (: I know myself well enough I can do it that means I can do it ... go go jia you Xiuhui!!!
Went tennis with minghuat,bev,jingchun,jeff,yewli and jeff today and I think I can conclude that my tennis sucks!! I am the noob-set of the noob-est no matter how hard I try I still CMI .. hias irritating…had bbq with sec school friends yesterday was kinda of fun but today they complain to me that they do not have enough bbq food they want satay and such.. okay i try to prepare more bbq food the next bbq session the 2-3 months later (:
♥Friday, August 29, 2008,
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Fuck mrs sim can .. I cannot get in to the school just because I wore slippers..
What the hell… went fair price to shop for bbq stuff..Yeemay acc me ..
Haa..luckily otherwise I dun think I can manage…THANKS GIRL (:
Half dead now ..
I wanna sleep ..ZzzZ ..
♥Thursday, August 28, 2008,
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Slept till 12 today but still kinda lethargic right now..
I want to sleep !!!
But I needa exercise!!!
Ate a lot yesterday at bk for supper..
Ate after supper too; Biscuits loads of them ):
♥Wednesday, August 27, 2008,
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Shagged at home .. As usual will be cooking later in the evening.. and weee…… gona meet my long lost baby in bk to study.. and shun bian discuss where to go next wed (: yeah .. finally we’ve fixed a date to go out !!! so so so looking forward to it (: My next week is filled up.. Monday – tuition at jb house Tuesday – outing with sam,cyn and long Wed – gona pon school (for a practical practice at cchy) den meet my darlies for a shopping and eating spree (: Thursday – might be meeting chai chin (she is way too busy for me nowadays ..) Friday –tuition at jb … Saturday –might be meeting ju (I am still deciding)..
I think I am going to lose a friend, one that i cared for ....
♥Tuesday, August 26, 2008,
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Hmm gym-ed today … went to LJS to meet ah yu and chatted on loads of stuff.. we have loads to catch up on .. as we haven been contacting since sec 2 I guess .. I needa rush home to cook dinner and meet yeemay so went off early .. sorry bud .. she walked me home even though she it was raining cats and dogs (: touched ..rush to cook for my family and also gota rush as I am going to meet yeemay … so after I finish all the cooking and such I called her .. and to my dismay she was with Myron … upon hearing that I sian1/2 .. I was like ,was’nt us suppose to meet just both of us …but aiya forget it …
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Shit hell !!! what happen to you huh !! xiuhui wake up!! Why you go reply her message?? You stupid or idiot har!! You said you want to forget, but your actions are contradicting yourself... If you want to forget you must really be firm no more wishy washie.. drag drag and drag you will end up falling deeper…getting yourself cut deeper and deeper…shed more and more tears.. getting sadder and sadder each day.. Is this the ending you want? I am sure the answer is no.. So please STOP !! stop being an asshole girl…
♥Monday, August 25, 2008,
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Wanted to study abit just now, so I went to bk .. saw quite a number of people haa .. As I brought my lappie along I did’nt managed to study end up watching Taiwan tv serials .. but after some time lappie no batt so started to study abit .. hee.. chatted with min,qi and yu in the interchange .. cute people ..Ah yu is becoming lamer and lamer already .. haa .. that’s a good thing .. Still my best bud though .. I won’t ever forget how she trusted and side-ed me during sec one. As you know I am a bad tempered/arrogant/a bitchy girl during sec 1 and nobody likes me but she tolerated me time and time again… Thanks girl for staying by my side when I need someone to talk to.. I simpily love you !!! haa.. wont ever forget you de I promise !!
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What the hell .. I flunk my oral totally .. fuck the question so easy until I have no0thing to say .. and guess what I saw mr Stanly lim and miss nora .. I was like omg .. My examiner is mr stanly ?? I I am so going to lol again cos whenever I see him I will think of his silky hair … thinking back last year prelims he was my examiner .. and I end up bursting out into laughter… I dun want history to repeat .. but in the end I find out that my examiner is two other unknown creature .. but they were kinda nice .. one was so so so cute I wanted to pinch her face … hahas .. the passage was great .. but I think I am reading like a bullet train .. I tried to slow down but I realize whenever I slow down I will start to stammer so I continue with my pace.. than it come to the pic conver .. I also dunno what I am talking.. so argh skip that part … the qn for conversation was what is a performance that leave you with a deep impression .. I was like oh gosh !! there is none .. my mind went blank .. and I was snapping my fingers constantly with my face smiling, I wanted to stop smiling but I cant that’s me when I am nervous!!! When I was about to say there is no performance the examiner prompt me again .. den I was like err .. the nicest performance I have ever watch is ….i was stammering like hell…..the one I watch in china .. Majestic view .. water fall horses ..This is real but just dunno how to describe its like so long ago … den she proceed to the other qn .. will you want to become an actor if you grow up I say no … cos there will be paparazzi following you and you will need to mind your manner and etiquettes.. Imagine yourself digging your nose in public and you will have your pictures splashed on the papers the next day .. that’s bad .. I have also elaborated on the good point like being the fashion icon and such.. the other question is what worry you the most .. Then I said my financial at home.. I cook out a story … that I grow up in a broken home and mum have to work like hell to make ends meet … and I 有多惨就说到多惨.. haa .. make them 可怜me .. hahas .. i think this part I manage to convince them cos I did not stammer a SINGLE bit ..I told them I’ve OPEN a blog shop selling muffins and brownies.. They even took down the link and say they want to buy form me(too bad it is fake!).. hahas .. I still say some stupid stuff and the were laughing their ass off ..they err no we laugh so loud till mr stanly turn and kaypo … hahas .. actually stanly was cute la .. in a sense he brought laugher to his students and also brighten their day when I am in secondary school haa.. (:
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Was hesitating whether if I should send that email annot .. but it will just benefit me if I send it .. She send me a good luck msg yesterday but I never reply .. she know that she have made the wrong move but she is still doing it again and again .. I just don’t understand why … O levels is coming and I just don’t know why my head is constantly thinking of you and this issue.. You wanted me to move on but with what you have done its getting harder and harder for me to get myself moving.. I guess this time I must a lil selfish and think for myself already… forget seems easy … but its NOT !!! But No matter what I have to move on !!
♥Sunday, August 24, 2008,
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Should be happy now … as I have seen the nicest fireworks in Singapore this year.. but I simpily cant… u give me stuff that you shd’nt give me I am afraid I will not ever be happy even if I see fireworks in future… I hate memories.. why are you doing all this after we broke up.. is this your forte making people happy and leave them alone ? going for a jog with jing chun and jeff at 8.30am later.. its like less den 6hours …but I cant simply sleep .. so haa .. going to be a panda later..
♥Saturday, August 23, 2008,
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Of all the things
I’ve believe in you
I just fucking want to get it over with
Tears from behind my eyes
And I try not to cry
Counting the days that pass me by
I’ve been searching
Deep down my soul
Words that I’m hearing
Are starting to get old
Feel likes I’m starting
All over again
The days
Were just pretend
And I said
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I once loved**
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
Good bye to you
And this time is for real …..
ps :Should I post this to my open to all blog ?
♥Friday, August 22, 2008,
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Whats Minnie without mickey
Whats tiger without pooh
Whats Patrick without spongebob
Whats me without u ?
I wonder what is love does it really exsist ?
You are constantly making me sad but I just can’t bring myself to hate you ..Do you know whats this feeling is like.. I don’t think so…
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Do you know, u make me cry when you say those things to me…
♥Thursday, August 21, 2008,
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Slept till 12.30pm today .. slack and eat lunch after that msg her and I went back to sleep again .. haa .. den she msg me asking me to call her.. but I continued sleeping till 5plus like that than I call her .. haa.. did I mention that I have the urge to call her yesterday night to tell her what I feel.. err I think no … but anyway what I wanted to tell her is I did feel something for her.. and I cannot forget her.. but its not time to get together yet ... but I went to bed without calling … I don’t like to take initiative… and usually I don’t know how to say out(cannot express myself).. ya .. I am just that timid… like that night I ask her not to sleep so earlie as I wanted to say thanks to her and tell her I appreciate everything she have done for me but those words just do not come out of my mouth.. I am just lan la… in the end I text-ed her telling her how I feel “frankly speaking I also dun expect myself to be that happy cos initially I tot yesterday will just be a normal outing.. but it just turns out to be a really memorable one… I mean you are one of the first person to actually make me so so so happy for my bdae.. and I am really touched… you crazy or what I u think you really spend too much on me le … must learn how to save some money for yourself kkx (: I dun see it as waste of money buying a cap that suits you …” this is what I send than she replied “hahas .. I noe u’re happy bt I didn’t really expect you to be dat happy..No la.. E amt is nothing.I think it is too lil le ..kekex.. dun hafta waste ur $ buying me a cap la…kekex..Okok.. I’ll send u e pic..” this is what she replied .. haa
ps:我会静静的看着你的!!
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Hmm.. to be true to myself… I am thinking of giving up already .. fully.. I mean I do not really feel much for her already.. I tot that day will just be a normal outing.. but it just turns out to be a memorable one… I mean she is one of the first person to actually make me so so so so happy for my bday.. and I am really touched… to think of that its already very sweet already… I know whats happening behind the scene .. you took off to buy my pressie (I can imagine those stupid stuff you did when you are creating xian dan ,it must be hilarious) (: and also took off to bring me out.. to think of this I am even more gan dong. Just a little action from you I am getting so touched .. its just weird.. yeemay suddenly tell me that liwei commented on her saying that “你现在最喜欢的是xiuhui对吗” and she went back to think la.. I dunno how she feel la.. maybe she only treat me as a normal friend or maybe she just wants to be someone that looks at me from afar or maybe maybe maybe .. there are many other possibly… too much to think of le…
♥Wednesday, August 20, 2008,
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Not forgetting yeemay she celebrated my bdae for me too (: we went to a jap restaurant for lunch … Thw one I always go when I am celebrating my bdae … hmm we placed our order.. yeemay ordered carborana and I ordered tako and ika oba pasta .. hers is a set it comes with a soup and a salad… not long later her soup and salad was served the soup was pathetic-ly little…but okay la not that bad(in terms of taste) … next that was served is the pasta gratin .. super cheesy but nice .. den it was the okonomi cheese.. it taste like takoyaki balls with a lil more ingredients (: soon it was my pasta, to my dismay I ordered the WRONG pasta can !!! irritating.. I want the black squid ink pasta in the end I ordered the green green spinach pasta.. taste disgusting like eating grass like that .. yeemay suggested me to add chilli and cheese haa .. taste better but there are still left over… yeemay’s bacon carborana is sauce-less haa .. she add loads of chilli and cheese to hers too … And AGAIN we are talking about relationship stuff.. I told her that me and her is really over( and I really think it is over until she told me something that she told her) okay after lunch we walk ard and we end up buying bras .. yes BRAS .. hahas… passed by a giap giap machine wanted to try my luck so I inserted $1 into it but never giap dao so I inserted $2 more but still nothing drop out .. so I fang qi ): went to watch movie (love guru) haa … hilarious but lame … I was so so so tired that I fell asleep in the theater… bev called yeemay saying that she want to meet us .. she treated me cheese cake <3 at changing appetite.. the waiter is driving me bonkes he is so sorry to say stupid… I asked him today’s cheesecake is ½ price right den he say no .. so I okok lor .. but in the end he added on to say that today’s cheesecake is 50% off … I was like wth .. isn’t it the same …when I was asking what cheese cake do they have the supervisor fuckingly throw her hand written list of cheesecakes they offer on our table as she is too lazy to read it out .. we end up ordering a lot things although I am super full due to the heavy lunch .. we ordered 2 cheese cake one oreo and one raspberry, one HOT chocolate as I am freezing cold a shaghai chicken and bev ordered a pasta … not bad la the food .. I love it … chatted for a while and we headed home.. On they way back I brought a bdae cake for myself as my family is not free to get one for me… home-ed sleey fer awhile and they sang a bdae song for me when I wake up .. make 3 wishes one related to her one related to me and one related to everybody …Since its my wish I shall not type out here …heee … HMM BUT ANYWAYS YEEMAY AND BEVERLY THANKS FOR CELEBRATING MY BDAE FOR ME (: I ENJOYED MYSELF ..
Today I went for badminton with my friends my poly friends .. sort of tired … exhausted after playing .. den I went home and orh orh till now .. hahas …
PS: I am hugging on xian dan to sleep ever since I got her <3
♥Tuesday, August 19, 2008,
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HAAA ..she celebrated my birthday for me yesterday… I am kinda happy (: really .. She very slow can… cos when we meet up that time right she did not managed to board the train that I am in… she said I signaled her too slow liao .. hahas .. is she slow can … so in the end I waited for her at the next station… haaas … Initially I tot we will be like sort of gang ga … but not really leah .. She keep asking me if I am hungry annot but I am NOT.. when we reached vivo its already like 7.15 like that liao.. So she went to buy the tickets to sentosa and song of the sea (: We watched the 8.40 show <3 .. Since we have some extra time we went to shop around … went to daiso and the pet shop .. From her eyes I can see that she is sort of compassionate .. I mean .. the way she looks at little doggies .. I just can feel the love she have for them.. Idk why … hmm .. she wear a super ugly cap so I took it away from her for the rest of the day and its still with me Now !! hahas … headed to sentosa at bout 8.30 and reached at 8.35 .. but sad to say it rains she wanted to buy an umbrella but I say dun need since I am wearing my blue hoodie (: initially she insisted on me wearing her cap but I inturn insisted her on wearing ( thinking back I think its cute for us to do that ) frankly speaking I sort of feel like both of us is a couple like that.. but sad to say we are NOT … I mean I just don’t know why we broke up just like that.. I did not do anything to salvage ): I should do something right ? okay back to yesterday… the show was pretty nice .. I particularly like the fireworks and the laser effect … she video-ed down the last part of the show.. she really have good video skills lor (: haa.. I can see that she is sweet la.. really really … after the show we headed to KFC for dinner … She actually knows what I want .. she ordered the correct thing hahas .. she did something sing so kuku when we are eating can .. someone knock the glass panel form next door.. so she also go knock back twice somemore… so dui lian can .. but cute la … did’nt expect her to do that … soon it was time to go home .. sad sia … I just dunno why I am kinda sad … hmm… on the train she ask me to choose a song from her phone to listen so I choose lor.. so qiao the song that I chose is what she is listening previously and what I am listening to for days and I did not expect the next song to be hun li … I was like so gan jiong wanting to change song.. I think so knows the reason behind me not listening to this song too …at dhoby ghaut I was guessing which bear she will buy for me and I think is the hello kitty one so I lied to her that someone had brought me that already … bad girl la me… (but I will tell her the truth one day de) she walked me home.. and when she pass me the present she said that I could not open till 12am .. which is my birthday (: and I guai guai listen to her… chat with chai chin on the phone till 12 .. she called asking me to open the pressie so I open-ed it and YES !!! I was right it was the one I always wanted !!! so happy can !!! really .. did’nt really notice his birth certificate till she ask me to take a look … kitty’s birthday is same as mine ! 19 AUG !! I will want to celebrate each and every of my birthday with kitty !! and I mean it!!! I will treasure and treat it s my baobei de !!! I swear !!! and I have also notice the name she gave for kitty its xian dan what I called her when we are still a couple… I just feel for this name …… chat with her till 2 plus .. den I called yeemay but she never pick up so I call chai chin .. and we chatted till 4 plus…
♥Monday, August 18, 2008,
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I AM SO SO SO SO SO SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW !!! HOPE 12AM CAN COME FASTER =) SO I CAN OPEN MY PRESSIE ….
♥Sunday, August 17, 2008,
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Hmm..just woke up from my sleep.. but still kinda sleepy..ZzZZz… tired sia.. woke up at 8am this morning… have breakfast and headed to ecp.. cycled to changi beach… hmm.. long and tired journey.. I rain half way… that’s why I am having flu now .. Damn irritating !! family celebrated my birthday for me today (: had fish head etc in some restaurant.. Ate way too much stuff today already will be heading to the gym tomorrow..I seriously do not think that Singapore will win the gold medal today.. Alritey got to go now (: muacks
♥Saturday, August 16, 2008,
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Finally catch a glimpse of the Olympics volley ball match not bad though spikes are strong and powerful.. hahas.. painted my nails blue and I kinda feel that it is sorta UGLY .. like some witches like that.. but I do not bear to remove it .. cos I took 1 and a half hour to do it ..
I told her that I will be meeting up with her on Monday and she says that she will bring me to sentosa (song of the sea) as I like fireworks ..she says its not really fireworks but its very nice and she is sure that I will like it (: hope so…. later she last min ps me again ..and this time I will really get angry …oh god I really suck I b ball sia .. I think I should polish up my skill abit already …
♥Friday, August 15, 2008,
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Hohoho.. just came back from gwc .. qi and acc celebrated my birthday .. They brought me to a jap pasta restaurant.. The food there not so bad la .. hmmm I managed to finish the whole main course!!! We ordered a soup, a salad, 2 pasta,one hot plate,one omelette rice and one super big pizza …they said the pizza is my bdae cake haa.. and they really sang a bdae song for me.. so pai seah sia … 让你们破费了!! Headed to the arcade……fun fun fun !!! we took a neo print but in the end the printer no ink so in the end we pose and edit the pictures liao but we never get our picture .. saded =( in the end we cam-whored at the lobby …but photos are not with me as my phone no batt le … they brought me a muffin cook book and a note book !! loves loves !! thanks guys !! I LOVE IT very very very very very much .. will bake it for you guys after I had succeed .. headed home at bout 11 plus …
♥Thursday, August 14, 2008,
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I ate my dinner with one monster just now!! Omg he ate like nobody business..wanted to go to the gym in the morning but yeemay is sick so I go to pasir ris to find her.. acc her to the polyclinic.. brought a lot of tidbits and sweets ..Went to watch 12 lotus erm I think not bad la quite nice.. meet up with both joshua ho and ang plus arumi.. gym-ed .. I haven even start much than they want to go home already.. but haa .. end up eating in KFC… on the way saw fang ru ,jia bing, puiman,nazreen ,shawn and jasmine .. haa .. nobody changed except me ..
♥Wednesday, August 13, 2008,
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Just came back from bbq sesison with W47K peeps.. fun can .. ate a lot... took loads of pics laugh loads.. French kiss with ---- .. they even took a picture of us la .. omg I can’t believe I did that…my first time can … Getting fatter ): cab-ed with farharna and kathi … went to the gym this morning someone fall from the treadmill ...Ambulance came.. Muscle aching now.. still deciding whether to go out with her on Monday.. I scared I make the wrong decision… did not reply her msg today .. actually is last night I jiu never reply liao .. cos she take so long to reply me.. we have been msg-ing everyday from last week la …
♥Tuesday, August 12, 2008,
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School was great today !! for the first time in my life in rp we did a skit (: I was assigned a role of a china girl .. fun though faci treated us with doughnuts ,she personally want to coach me for my Os la .. actually she not bad de lor .. hmm ate a lot of stuff today so I headed to the gym to my dismay it rains .. so I have no choice but to buy an umbrella.. I am sleepy blog tmr .. whee …
♥Monday, August 11, 2008,
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Sakae was great, I mean the gathering not the food, the food totally sucks can... wenxi and jiabing went off first the rest of us chatted for 15 mins like that than yeemay said she want to go home as she had a heavy lappie… josh,cyn,yang,jeff acc me home before they to safra to meet dex for pool… I headed home.. actually I wanted to go along de.. but tat person is there so ya did’nt go ..so I headed home .. anyways I am tired too.. so head home to orh orh~~~ On sat my mum sucks big time can I was boiling water to cook meesua for breakfast but she did not tell me that dad will be tapaoing for me.. Until I cook everything le den she say “why on the fire until so big spoil the pot you know she continued saying dad tapao for you leah you still cook .. den I said why don’t you tell me earlier den she say how I know you are cooking ? Very cbgpxl lor she did it in purpose ...” fuck her la.. She sucks big time … I left the noodle there I called dad he was pissed off with ME !! fuck can he should be pissed at my mum de lor.. k nvm I kept quiet and I went to bathe… when I came out of the bath room dad was back I took my noodle and sit infront of my laptop dad starts nagging at me again I get so pissed of that I went to my bed room with my noodle F.U.C.K mum can she complained to my dad saying that I am eating inside dad flared up and in turn shouted back at me!!! I am pissed so in the end I dun even feel like eating the noodle already.. so I left the noodle at the table.. Dad shouted again !! saying that “dun waste food hor !!! ” So I reluctantly finished everything… I slacked at home for a while and I wanted to go to the gym but dad forced me to go to granny house .. I am so pissed off can so I brought my laptop along and I intend to surf and shop online there… mum and dad went for lunch and I say I dun want to go .. I mean I have just eaten 1 hr before and they say a lot of sarcastic stuff at me I am so sad upon hearing that and I went to the room … I tear-ed .. ya !! I am just that weak ..i cry for every single thing..its my aunt turn to force me to eat.. When they all went out.. Although I am full I stuff myself with the food.. I dunno why la .. but my other aunt just like to criticize my dress my nail polish and such .. that’s simply annoying !!! I locked myself in my room upon reaching home .. replied her msg and we were sort of like having a “war” when we are msg-ing..I think its pointless so I did not reply her after a few msg… Hmm wanted to watch fireworks with someone de but I vomited on the way so bo bian needa go home.. ate self prescribe medicine .. sad to say I ate the wrong one… mum was bad mouthing me .. I was sick so I dun even want to care about her ..slept till about 8 or 9 like that.. she send me another msg saying that she saw a rainbow … replied a few and I went back to sleep again …headed to the gym when I woke up the next morning .. basically I spend my morning in the gym… went home had fish and veggie for lunch and I went back to sleep.. till bout 2 plus like that they are going out for an family outing but I fuckin-ly dun want to go so I stayed at home.. went down stairs to buy laksa and bobo cha cha to eat .. super full can .. watched destiny love for 3 hours and I went back to sleep again.. till about 1 plus I woke up and I saw her msg again…. replied …and we end up taking over the phone.. till 6 plus in the morning.. And now I am in school abit sleepy… fuck can mum called and gup my phone SHE IS A BIG FAT SUCKER.. and I dun even want to talk to her already… knnbccb..
theres is a problem in uploading the pictures ..
will upload it next time (:
♥Thursday, August 7, 2008,
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FCUK !! i typed so much just now and that stupid blogger hanged .. and the entry is not saved .. gona re-blog tmr again ..
Went to vivo .. fun filled day .. had curry noodle while bestie have wonton soup .. nice.. window shop fer awhile, discovered a pinky shop.. I like all the stuff there <3 … at 4 plus like that we settled down at starbucks as I need to do my RJ .. upon finishing bestie and I checked out others Friendster … saw mr k one we laugh till peng … hahas .. den she need to go back to charcoal to get her pay so I acc her but I waited for her outside at the hotdog stand there… after that we went to the pet shop at vivo doggie are cute but still like mini poodle or the one that zi owns.. haa brought doughnuts ,crème puff and friend potato right before we go home.. looking forward to sakae (:
DONE (:
♥Wednesday, August 6, 2008,
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yeah yeah .. my birthday is next week (: dunno what my family and friends have prepared for me(or dun tell me they forget liao) .. i want strawberry cheese cake... and pasta de waraku .. went to the gym just now .. no suai ge ... saded~~~ upon reaching home i ate cheese cake and cow soup nice can ... i dunno why i just feel sad just now after school so i brought choc for myself to make myself happy... calorie so many calorie ... hmm i replied her guess what i typed "Sorry, i am tired" i and i send the msg to her.. cold enough hor ... i jsut dun feel like meeting anyone theses days friends pls ti liang me abit kkx ... kiki is a bad ass in school faker ..
♥Tuesday, August 5, 2008,
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kikiki seems to find out something that is happening in the class.. I just got the feeling .. and that’s bad.. I don’t know what to say … just plain uneasy .. what I can do is don’t think to much .. everything will be over in a week’s time.. things are going to change in to the better… dear diary tell u something and I think you will LMFAO. Yesterday I went to watch money 2 and I went to the wrong theater… I fuckingly sit there for 15min not noticing it .. till the show end… so I went out and told the staff that I went to the wrong theater so I changed and go to the one that I supposed to go..but too bad I missed 25 mins liao … wth… sorta funny la the show typical jack neo’s style.. I laugh until my tummy pain sia.. one part only la .. after the movie I walk to ah beah tuition from wudlenz to sembawang 1 hr… hahas… school was bad bad bad .. culture … dead sea in school ): gym-ing later… hope to burn more calorie… had nachos earlier on.. satisfying <3>
tired~~
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♥Monday, August 4, 2008,
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This is my grade .. that ugly C spoil the whole picture of A sia ... But anyways this is the first time i receive so many A at one go ....happy .. kkx gona reward myself later (: movie !!! loves <3Refresh-d.
After i publish that post yesterday she msg me again... But this time i am firm enough to not reply her ... everything should come to an end.. let august mark the new start for my life.. turning 17 in 2 weeks time...In less than a month, i will be having my english O levels oral ...can't believe that i am going thru another round of torturous hell again .. stress here you come knocking on my doors again .. holidays for rp students, but for me i still have to mug and mug again .. wth right .... with my suckie english i dont think i can go far .. okay i think i will let august be MY speak english week !!! to improve my english .. hehe.. i am craving or NACHOS AGAIN !! gona go buy it later during the first break !! with extra cheese !!!
Labels: nachos here i come
♥Sunday, August 3, 2008,
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Went to giant just now .. brought loads of things sia .. hahas ... all my favourite but i forget to buy kiwi ... saded ... gym-ed just now sian lor no suai ge.. sleepy but dont feel like sleeping cos i wanna watch drama.. hahas .. tmr is computing and maths can slack abit in class .. hmm did i mention that she msg me again in my previous post haa.. i forget already ... hee.. she told me that she injured her leg .. but my first reaction is whats the point !?!?! tell me for what ?!? she just told me that she just wanna let me know .. i just can't get what she is thinking sia .... i am not habouring any hopes for her anymore !! me is me, she is she NO LINK !! just a normal friend... okay i think i gtg now .. bye ~~~
♥Saturday, August 2, 2008,
Refresh-d.
i am inspired by your words .. i will work for myself and not others (:
jia you xiuhui !!!!
♥Friday, August 1, 2008,
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I’ve never blogging for the past few days .. I am just too tired … i am getting slacker and slacker already.. I just don’t feel like touching my O level stuff not a single one.. and I am giving myself excuses to not to study like I can going to nautical studies if I cannot make it or something in this line… I know by doing this I am going to let down my mum and dad... alritey yesterday bestie come to my school to find me hahas.. wanted to watch money not enough but we are too late already so we switch to mummy but the fucking Q that we are in super duper slow siol so in the end when it is our turn to buy there are TWO FUCKING seats left and guess what the seats are separated wth right Q for bloody 30 min not getting any good seats lar …. I think the keypad on my lappie spoiling liao .. Very damn irritating !!
Today I lunched with my classmates and faci in the aircorn canteen .. food was okok la … haa.. went up to the class .. and it just happen that the class next door is taking pictures so I help them take lor… and here I am blogging ….. kathi went to meet his girl friend today is their anniversary .. he so wu xim can!! fold stars for his girlfriend .. sweet hor .. hahas.. Still have tar go jb later kinda sian la…but maybe meeting bev and bestie later… dunno … faci say she is going to give me an A if I finish question and all must be done correctly.. if there is any mistakes she will give me a B .. SAD sia …
♥Tuesday, July 29, 2008,
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Do you know that I dreamt bout you last night and it’s a sweet-est dream I have ever had in this few months… Seriously I do not have any hopes on you already... I wanted to call you in the middle of the night all of a sudden... But in the end I never... I just simply force myself to sleep.. I woke up smiling .. but its just a dream .. I said let go but deep inside I am still hanging on .. its killing me cos there are nothing I can do..I know it is wrong for me to like you already but I cannot help it .. perhaps is the dream … the dream… the tender kiss that you gave me still stays in my head… I just cannot simply forget it how ? can you teach me ? I think you won’t ..
I am just feeling lost !! LOST !! you know can some one help me.. Now I truly realize how suckie is it to have a relationship I rather me 暗恋someone than living in the memories of a relationship(to be true we dun have much memories just the little things I see and I will just bu zhi bu jue think of you).. .. I wanted to let go or totally forget this part of my life but I simply cant.. why why why must I get into this ..
Haa my prayers are answered she msg me today after school.. she broke her leg.. According to logic I should be happy to hear that .. I should be saying serve you right… but I DID NOT maybe is because of that dream that I have ba.. I should not be text-ing you now de lor .. I felt so wrong but I just cannot resist the temptation this time after that dream that I have.. I just simpily feel so sad sad for myself sad for what I am doing I feel that I am stupid real stupid..
♥Monday, July 28, 2008,
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I am now in school and its maths .. excel again .. hias I forget how to do the graph already…that shit pink asshole is sitting beside me and killa told me that he is constantly looking on my screen.. fuck him can.. with him we cannot go home early lor.. still need to do presentation.. that’s suckie !!! Without him we are usually released at bout 3 plus of so but with him I think we will finish at bout 4 plus.. Really feel like slapping his face.. Granddaddy was admitted to the hospital last night.. Dad went to acc him..Gong Gong have 7 children but only dad appeared its like wth right …Although dad is the eldest but should’nt they share the responsibility of taking care their own father together.. Got good stuff than go dun have den shunt.. Its like so unfair to dad …
I dunno why but I just feel emotional nowadays ………… I just do not feel like disclosing stuff to anyone anymore… I know that you guys treat me well but the problem lies with me alrite…
Its after lunch now .. so happy can … I had mei ren yu.. and the best thing is I saw her hahas .. so happy !!! loves .. jen and I was checking out on guys just now .. saw a few real cute ones … oh well.. there I go again…Our class is having class outing haa .. I actually sort of feel for the class la .. we are separating each other soon leah.. so I think I most probably will be going …cos it seemed to be fun … 2 more weeks together … and I am counting … I saw brenda just now… wanted to tell her … hesitated..we smiled to each other ... in the end I never say anything ..she kept quiet too..I am guilty cos this time is really my fault.. jen suggested me to add her in communicator ..and yupps I am going to add her.. and also tell her what happen.. hope that works accept my proposal (:
♥Sunday, July 27, 2008,
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my ah gong have just been admited to the hospital i have no mood to blog ....i am pretty worried for him ...
♥Saturday, July 26, 2008,
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The yellow loves of my life
First one the list
Cheese cake
Siew mai
Mango
Durian
Pasta (yet to try the yellow radio active colour one reco by sam ) I think I dun have the chance unless my hubbie bring me to rome for honey moon) hahas
Mei ren yu
Durian ice cream
Crème puff
Tako ball
Mango pudding
Banana
Chips
Pineapple tart
Egg tart
Nachos (with extra cheese)
Mountain dew
though i loves to eat food that is yellow in colour i am still a pink baby =)
loyal fan of pink colour ..
Labels: my loves
♥Friday, July 25, 2008,
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I dunno why but I just feel sad
I am sad
I am sad
I am sad
I am sad
I am sad
I am sad
I am sad
I am sad
I am sad
I am sad
I am sad
I am sad
I am sad
I am sad
I am sad
I am sad
I am sad
I am sad
I am sad
I am sad
I just feel really sad
I left all my friends
I kept myself isolated
I feel that I am a bad friend
Is it a sin to be myself?
I really don’t know …
♥Thursday, July 24, 2008,
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This two days I have been alone went to school alone eat alone jog alone and alone really that kind of alone la... and I kinda enjoy it cos I can get to make decisions for myself .. Usually when I am with my friend i will always rely on my friends to make decisions for me... Now I have no choice but to make decision on myself… I have a variety of fruits for breakfast today … Apple, orange, watermelon, honeydew and dragon fruit that’s a lot ya (: hahas .. just came back from my lunch break.. have mee hoon kuey .. although it is not that nice I still finish it.. it warms my body.. loves .. now I am stuck with doing the ppt I did not really put much effort… just lethargic maybe yeemay is right I sleep too much already …
Hmm I am changing my phone number.. so she cannot contact me already.. I just dun want the feeling to come to me again and again.. wait till I am ready to treat her solely as a friend and that will be the time we will be talking again…
♥Wednesday, July 23, 2008,
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I have been hiding, running away from the real me.At times i laugh because I wanted to hide my true identity to blend into the situation… But now i think i am laughing and laughing lesser.... Perhaps i am really tired putting up a mask...
Labels: tired
♥Tuesday, July 22, 2008,
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Angry siol that ximei promise me to come to school but never come 害me 饿肚子.. survive the day with siew mai and nachos… so hungry can !! both items cannot satify my stomach ..
So after school I went back to the canteen to buy nachos,blackforest cake, siew mai and cheesy puffy dog.. hahas .. that’s a lot .. wanted to talk a taxi home but no more cash and I am left with nets if I pay with nets there will be an 10% additional charges and its also peak hour already so I have to pay extra 40%.. Its alot so I decided to take a bus instead.. I went home and I slept again till 7.35pm ..wake up eat again… but its my fav yong tofu … hahas .. headed to jb .. still earlie so I decided to loiter around the bb court.. aiya actually nothing much happen ..
Things are fucking in my brain no mood to study I cannot control myself…It comes again and again.. I am going crazy every day; I think I have an attitude problem!!!I flare up for every little things.. I try to change but it is HARD.. things just don’t turn out right,words just don’t come out right..Can I go back to the times when I keep everything to myself.Actually I love being alone, I enjoyed the times when I watch movie alone, shop alone, gym alone all alone !!!! alone alone alone !!!
♥Monday, July 21, 2008,
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Okay .. hmm I am now in school just woke up from my sweet dreams.. Hahas... I very tired ya.. i also dunno why …..my muscle is aching.. Terrible-ly... I walk also very pain... I think I run too fast yesterday cos usually I take 5 songs to finish the whole lap but yesterday I took 4 songs to finish the whole lap...I run faster than usual because its late at night already and dad wants me to be home early so ya.. painful painful painful … I want to eat nachos.. I think I gona buy some later .. hahas .. fattening!! Hahas .. I doubt I can jog today already..my muscle really aching.. hias just let my body store the fats ba.. I just want to eat =)
Labels: nachos chips (:
♥Sunday, July 20, 2008,
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Ah hem .. I had a hectic day today.. woke up at 9 am sharp in the morning had a warm bath and went to the market for breakfast .. had prawn mee and a muffin .. that’s fattening .. haha .. so I requested pappie to bring us to ecp so at least I can burn away some fats ..
1pm ---- Zoom here we come ecp ..rented 4 bike and we started our cycling journey … hmm went by the cable ski park and I sort of reminiscence the days when I am in the wakeboarding IG .. sort of missed it la .. the people especially.. hmm I think I will take up cable skiing courses soon.. so as to prepare me to join back that IG next year =) .. the day was pretty good until it started to rain .. We cycled to the seafood restaurant for chili crab.. it was yummy .. but also very expensive.. A bloody crab that weighs 1.1kg cost forty over dollar .. so ex can !! headed to Carrefour to replenish the grocery.. In total we brought 12 liters of milk.. OH my fucking god that’s a lot I did not realize we took so much until I reach home.. After packing all the stuff into the fridge dash to my bed ... dead beat … slept till about 8.50 pm .. and I got myself changed and I went for a jog in the park to burn off the calorie that I had gotten from that sinful plate of chili crab… had a hot bath and tada I am here blogging again =))
Labels: east cost park + yummy chili crab =)
♥Saturday, July 19, 2008,
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Its 1pm .. and I am here blogging again.. went for a jog just now,images flashes through my mind .. not only the past but ALSO the present and the future.. what I have turn to and what I am going to be like in the future. In the past I am just a girl who can laugh LOL all the time just like a mad girl… No one actually knows what I am thinking and what I am doing.. In terms of relationship I can say that it is smooth sailing until “-------” happen..but at that time I think I have the right decision all by MYSELF cos I have no choice as no one know whats going on.. But today I’ve made a irrational mistake by tell some of my good friends what have happen (i just need someone to talk to) and I am receiving different advises.. at one point of time I believe yeemay at the other point of time I believe chai chin and at the other point of time I believe in xi mei but I never ever ask myself what I really think who I really believe and tend to jump into conclusions just like that.. I know I have hurt people telling that I trust this person but dun trust the other .. I am really SORRY … Give me time, I need some time to actually sort out everything..I am confused …SORRY …
Labels: sorry
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Well well well ..its 10 am in the morning and I really dunno what the fuck I am thinking.. what the fuck I am doing.. I think that I usually made the wrong decision..yeemay called me and told me loads of thing over the phone..she made me realize how dumb I am..I know I should fucking forget her and get on with my life but whenever I wanted that to stop.. she surfaced again.. i am stuck in this cycle all over again .. and I really detest it !!! I wanted to ignore .. and sometimes I did it by not replying her msg-es.. but I think she knows what I am thinking so she tend to call me.. she knows that I am someone who cant resist sweet talks.. that’s where everything begins again.. I want to rule my life but I think this person is controlling me every now and than.. wth …AND I HATE IT !!
♥Friday, July 18, 2008,
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Hias… I don’t know if I have made the right choice annot… the choice of believing her...Actually I should not tell her anything in the first place... Really.. I really don’t know if both of them are hiding... Or what... I am just plain stupid at times seriously... Stupid in making decision... Stupid with my social life.. Stupid in my actions/behavior... Stupid in my words... Stupid in my studies.. stupid in my thinking.. I think the only reason that I believe her is because I love her… I wanted to believe her so badly in the first place.. so so so so so so so so badly ..
I know that I have try my best to make you see that there’s hope beyond the plain… only love can say,try again or walk away..so can we get back to the past?My friends told me not to believe you interms of relationship but to believe you in friendship.. should I just let it go and walk away? This might bring me out of this heart aching routine that I get on and off everyday.. But I just find it hard to let go of everything … especially all the memories we’ve built up…
Wa just now I saw her in the canteen sia .. both of them .. kinda happy hahas ..but I dun like the g siol .. but her voice very girl leah .. really that kind of 温柔 de… but I like more man de leah .. aiya .. dun care le la .. can see her 就好 le (: I am dreaming again .. wth .. err .. I wanted to say sorry to ximei leah .. I not be careful say out part of your secret to ting and ni ..but they say they wont say out …
♥Thursday, July 17, 2008,
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Had lunch with ximei yesterday, 我把全部的是情都一五一十的跟她说了 hahas... She actually believes in xpp... She said that 一个须要人家相信的人是清白的, 一个叫你相信他的人是心须的.. 如果她 (ximei) 发现我是---我不知道她会不会远离我, 我不想失去一个这么好的朋友!! As you know ximei judgment is always correct, she does not make any mistakes in judging people.. she is just like a gift bestowed to me by god!! I am thankful for everything you guys have done for me.. I mean I felt really really happy to have friends that care and concern for me… should I message you and tell you that I believe you?? Or should I not ?? you should feel it I guess …hmm but I just feel abit bad questioning you that night.. Sorry for being so harsh to you and you trying your best to tell me how much you like me at that time.. what do you mean by 现在不是时后,也许以后有可能把.问提不出在你的身上是我的错…对不起!! 我不可能找到一个对我这样好的人了.你是后悔把我的手放开,还是你要在寻找令一个人呢?你是不是在暗事我,要我等你啊? 刚才看电影的时后我也有想到你,hmm 很可笑吧…我相信你是爱我的…只是时间不对儿以...
♥Wednesday, July 16, 2008,
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I can’t believe I could survive yesterday with barely 2 hours off sleep ..
Had my Chinese listening yesterday totally flunk can... Disastrous!! hehe.. I peeped on to the otas sheet of the candidate sitting beside me .. hehe evil me !! I think I got 3 or 4 wrong sia .. hias .. I gay talked to me .. omg he is totally disgusting can .. yucks!!! Eeee…Headed home for a bath.. went back to school again .. wanted to go for IG but johanna and I waited for her friend so in the end we were late ..when we reach there are no more ingredients left for us.. head to cwp and shopped for awhile brought a yoghurt ice and also cheese balls .. the yoghurt totally CMI awful .. I threw more than half of it away.. sent johanna and her friend to the interchange and I continued shopping at cwp.. wanted to buy a couple of mask.. but end up not buying… reached home at bout 8 ++ … shagged … watch tv and went to sleep ……. She msg me at 11plus that she had ended work but I am just too tired, so after replying a few msg-es I told her that I am sleepy.. Overslept again today.. my faci was stunned that I came to school .. I think he had not seen me for 6 weeks le ba since last holiday..Hahas.. I am super hungry just now.. but now not so le .. cos I brought cheesy puffy dog and a curry puff. Satisfying!!! Brought durians to school for ximei today luckily the smell does not diffuse...i’ll kill her if she dont come to school!! Hahas.. I think I am not going to jb later .. I am too tired.. Do you want me to wait for you ? what exactly you want from me ? Frankly speaking I had already forget 65% of you already than you said all that to me again.. Vicious cycle .. stop can…
♥Tuesday, July 15, 2008,
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Received an unexpected call yesterday after chatting with ximei she called…again did not realize is her until she talk .. wth right ..hias ..i am just blur at night la .. chatted on alot of stuff .. I doubted her words.. I probe on a lot of stuff .. I was double confirming a lot of things.. she told me she was innocent she wants me to clarify stuff.. but i kept saying that 过去了就让他过去吧!! She gets abit agitated … but I just never say who told me .. she guessed and I told her not to tell me what’s her guess .. I told her I do not believe anyone now.. 现在我听就好了,我不要想太多了…its emotionally taxing.. she told me that I am one of those who know a lot of her stuff as in those bad ones .. she told me she is egoistic .. she do not want anyone to know the fragile side of her .. she was faking out a smile all the time .. she forged a false identity in front of some of her friends and acquaintances … I believe la (I mean this part) .. she brought up our past.. she told fang some stuff yesterday (what I did for her in the past,and such) I was stunned !! seriously I thought that she have forgotten me and our past.. She told me that treated her too well… 这样有错吗? She said she needs time, she gave me a feeling that she wants me to wait for her.. she say she needs time for everything.. I can wait.. but is it worth it? Will I end up getting hurt again ? I don’t know ..thought of this song冲动… hahas
but yesterday she told me that she will make me happy everyday haa.. den I inturn say 你愧疚啊,想补回是吗? Then she kept quite .. I ask her why,than she said that she is lost for words.. haa, we still chatted a lot of stuff la but I forget some liao … we chat till 5.45 like that sia .. my phone bills exploding soon la.. I wanted to wake up 6 this morning to revise for my UT but in the end I end up sleeping till 8 am wtf .. I did not even touch my 6p .. went to school almost late.. than that stupid ut client cannot load ..fucking irritating .. end up doing on paper .. gona do badly… Chinese O level i am not going to let history repeat again .. but I am sleepy !!! die liao
很感激 这城市拥挤的交通
让你我 还能多相处几分钟
人潮中 怕失散所以轻轻拉你的手
一刻不放松 不放松
忍不住 想要爱你的冲动
不确定你属于我 会有点寂寞
你给的幸福 在我心中自由走动
抚平我 每一个伤口
忍不住 想要吻你的冲动
不确定我的执着 能让你感动
我只能相信 自己感受不怕失落
关于你的一切 我想要比谁都懂
我的心 是被你设定的闹钟
提醒我 想你的时间不够用
为什么 平淡的事情现在忽然生动
是你改变我 改变我
你是情人 还是朋友
还没勇气 想得太多
你的世界 如此辽阔
我会在哪个角落
♥Monday, July 14, 2008,
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I SMELL YOU JUST NOW!!!
Refresh-d.
All right I am in school right now !! hee.. I think I got that thing siol but I forget to bring my pad .. wth right but heng ar fen ni has it so she lend me hers .. thanks .. ate a breakfast bar, a battered fried fish and a Hawaiian wrap in the morning .. a lot sia .. meeted xi mei they all for lunch I have my favorite yong toufoo .. hehehe .. but I forget to tell the aunty to not deep fried my stuff so she fry it .. 50 more calorie ): I am like gaining and gaining more and more weight and this must STOP seriously… But I still feel hungry right now !! wtf .. cannot eat liao le la … luckily I am going for a jog later .. but I am tired right now .. I wanna sleep .. I am not paying attention also .. Actually I am kinda happy right now !! cos I got an A for my science last week (: that means now my daily grade for science avg is B ..No more ponning le XIUHUI u better fucking-ly attend school to salvage your grades!!!! Your gpa are all 2.5 that really bad .. so pls wake up !!! attend school !!! or you will regret !!!!
Labels: i must go school regularly
♥Sunday, July 13, 2008,
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Went ecp yesterday .. took like 3hr for me to reach there can .. I left home at 3.35 and i reach there like 6.20 pm .. we rented bikes and started our paddling journey for 2 hr .. hahas .. such an accomplishment !!! finished cycling at 9pm .. headed to pp for din .. acc ximei to giant for her sashimi I brought a cheesecake .. the type of half kg one.. while we are queing up ximei I and I finish 400g of the cheesecake .. and people queing up behind us are gossiping about our eating manner … super diu lian lar .. but we are really very hungry ma .. hahas .. hmm upon paying we headed to the food court wanted to eat western food but closed liao(cos its 9.30 liao,cant believe I ate my dinner so late) .. so i walk around the food court actually nothing much only 3 stalls .. pathetic hor .. cos the rest all closed .. qi have laksa and it seemed appealing so I also ordered .. the uncle was so kind he gave me extra 5 fishballs cos I said that I dun want fish cakes … After dinner we went to buy bubble tea .. I have strawberry lychee not that nice… luckily ximei likes it so I gave her .. brought a cd.. that singer have a nice voice .. hmm headed to a tidbit store and I start hunting for tidbits .. brought a jap version de yan yan and a jap version de sweet .. not that nice .. saded ): today I went for a jog in the morning did a total of 150 sit ups .. hahas .. got improvement.. but my skin started to peel painful .. brought a shoe bag , hmm saw a adidas de sport shoe wanted to buy but not enough cash hmm buying tomorrow.. hahas .. loves .. meeting ximei after school for a jog .. loves !! den needa go to ah beh’s tuition .. saded..
♥Saturday, July 12, 2008,
Refresh-d.
Hmm slept at 11pm last night but woke up at 4 to reply qi and ximei on msn .. hahas .. they really super cute can .. felt comfortable to chat and hang out with them .. hahas … used the comp for awhile and I went back to bed at 5plus 6 like that .. woke up at 10.20am laze around on the bed till 11am… changed and went for a jog … did 100 sit up(hias so little) .. went home and cook yong tofu for lunch .. meeting qi they all at ecp to cycle .. hahas… pukupukumuahahaha…
♥Friday, July 11, 2008,
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She msg me ytd night and I am like so dumb to dun recognize her number wth …I dunno what I typed and send to her ytd… upon knowing who she is I said so much bo chap stuff like I dun want you liao .. she said that she want cry liao upon hearing my words.. but don’t think she say it deep from her heart she send that msg to me for the sake of sending .. she wont ever be sad for anything that is related to me … wanted to stop texting her after she told me who she is .. Hesitated … but still texted her .. but I write in in a way that is kinda cold I think… although I feel something upon sending those harsh words msg-es but I am proud of myself to push aside all my emotions … life still have to go on… been listening to this song for days hopping I can get over you asap !!! ytd after school actually I wanted to walk to cwp but in the end I took a bus to her house there wth right .. I didn’t know it was the bus that go to her house de until was up there.. but I did not feel much things when I reached her house that stop .Maybe we just dun have much memories there….
Went to orchard to meet yeemay .. she was late for half an hour .. I sat down there at the station like a noob waiting for her la .. shd have made her treat me .. hahas lol … went my fav soup spoon for dinner superfull can.. as usual I have bonston clam chowder,asian tofu salad and esprit passion fruit .. loves =)) walk to taka .. and the food fair is stil there.. walao they cheat my feelings .. Shall not elaborate .. had alcohol orange chocolate ice cream .. satisfying!!!! Bump onto my bed upon reaching home .. fell asleep without doing my rj .. I woke up at about 12am .. replied her msg .. went to bathe.. eat egg and I watch volleyball babes.. went back to my room type some blog post.. slept at 3am .. and in the morning I woke up at 7.10 since its still sorta early I went back to sleep.. and to my dismay I overslept … I slept till 8.05 .. but I have a sweet dream.. cheong to the washroom and bathe.. blowed my hair and I chop chop went out of the house .. and tada I am here blogging now .. today we are having sci and it totally suck can .. ihate chem. .. but I sorta like the teacher cos she is kinda patient.. later meeting ximei,huiting and fenni for lunch ..going to jb straight after school hias .. sian ½ but no choice. Maybe meeting yeemay after that but dunno she can make it annot..
Oh ya .. heard from Johanna yesterday that SHL courses there is one module that requires us to play bb all that than they grade us by seeing if we are enthu annot .. nice hor .. hope that I can transfer lor ..
This song is loves …
Now that it’s all said and done
I can’t believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down
Like an old abandoned house
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breathI fell too far, was in way too deep
Guess I let you get the best of meeee
Well I never saw it comingI should have started running
A long, long time agooo!
And I never thought I’d doubt youI’m better off without you
More than you, more than you knowI’m slowly getting closure
I guess it’s really overI’m finally gettin’ better
Now I’m picking up the pieces
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together‘
Cause the day I thought I’d never get throughI got over you!!!
You took a hammer to these walls
Dragged the memories down the hall
Packed your bags and walked away
There was nothing I could say,And when you slammed the front door shut
A lot of other’s opened up
So did my eyes so I could seeThat you never were the best for meee
Well I never saw it coming
I should have started running
A long, long time agooo!
And I never thought I’d doubt youI’m better off without you
More than you, more than you knowI’m slowly getting closureI guess it’s really overI’m finally gettin’ better
Now I’m picking up the pieces
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
Cause the day I thought I’d never get throughI got over you!!!
I never saw it comingI should have started running
A long, long time agooo
And I never thought I’d doubt you
I’m better off without you
And I never saw it comingI should have started runningI’m finally getting better
Now I’m picking up the pieces
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
And I got over you!!!And I got over you!!!And I got over you!!!
The day I thought I’d never get throughI got over you…
Labels: i think i am over you .. marched toward SHL and food
♥Wednesday, July 9, 2008,
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hmm having chinese oral later hope i can do well hahas (:
actually i do not know what i want in life yet ??
what is my real dreams my aspiration
my loves
my needs
my wants
my life
what is me
have i lost my identity
my trueself
where is that angle inside me ??
fallen asleep or kena murdered by me ?
if fallen asleep pls wake up !!!
i need your help ..
i have been brooding over so so so so so so many issue
its like wth is happening to me
arent me the xiuhui that can make decisive decision for my life
but now i am like an aimless wood floating in the middle of the sea waiting for rescue
who is kind enough to throw a life buoy for me .. led me trough the stormy days that i am going thru now ....
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Today on the train yeemay told me it might be weijun tagging my blog anonymously could It be him? We have not been contacting since march cos that time I told him that I am steading with her ..although that time I got tell her that I am still contacting him but I feel that it is not right to do that…. so ya .. I lost all my contacts including his due to some phone problems.. so cannot contact him anymore ..
But I noe there isn’t love btwn us anymore ..you hate me loads and i noe there is no point for me explaianing to you what have happen.. time washes everything away … perhaps we could be best friend .. If its you that is tagging my blog pls tell me so .. you will be most appreciated …
♥Tuesday, July 8, 2008,
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Hmm .. shagged .. turning mould-y in school now .. my eyes are shutting down soon .. its just like a dead sea in school … looking forward to the next sem can change classs .. hope can be in the same class as her hahas.. hope only la … Xiuhui is dreaming again .. xoxoxo .. I think I need a major restructure for my life .. everything is going haywired nothing seemed to be right … went jogging yesterday, I think I have strain my muscles too much thats why its aching now .. it shd’nt be the case as I have been jogging for the past 2 weeks.. hope that it is not muscle tear .. otherwise 就惨了.. cannot exercise for like 2 weeks like that … I have been eating and eating cheesecake for the past few days .. Daddy brought me a cheesecake those medium sized rounded ones guess what I ate ½ of it yesterday LMAO I dunno how much calories I have gain from eating it … seriously its more than what I have burn this few days during jogging … wth .. I dun want to become a fat pig!!!! I have decided to terminate my wakeboarding training till the end of o levels cos I think I have no time for it anymore that john beah wants me to go to his house like 3 times a week for tuition and I needa revise my 2 other o levels subjects too .. I really hope I can do well .. mum was telling me that I am draining dad’s saving.. I needa stop all this !!!!! I need to pick up all the messes that I have created !!!! otherwise dad will not be able to cope with his finances already….
dunno that yeemay will wakie in time annot .. i think she wont
haa
cos she is a sleepy head
and i am becoming more and more like her already ...
but always i am better (: in everysense except studies !! hahas
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♥Monday, July 7, 2008,
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Erm ponned school today again .. stayed at home to pack my dusty table .. its clean again .. haa… still got loads of thing haven pack yet leah … hias .. later going to john beah .. by right I should be revising my science now instead of blogging … tmr there is a science ut and I haven even touch anything yet … hias cannot fail any ut anymore cos I have been constantly ponning school .. hmm I think I have made up my mind I will be staying in rp if I can transfer to school of SHL cos rp is the only poly that offer this kind of sport courses .. Sports are loves =)
♥Sunday, July 6, 2008,
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ytd night i talk to a bunk a total stranger ..i think i have changed in the past i will not talk to a total stranger that i have met online ...after talking to her i think in relationship wise i am more fortunate than her ... cos i think her gf is totAlly selfish .. girls ..girls .. becoming from bad to worst ... hias .. she ask me a qn and i totally could not answer ... she said she saw my profile and i state that i am a bi and she asked me why i dun just go to a guy instead i go for both .. actually i also very unsure of my sexuality .. hias ... xiuhui xiuhui .. what happen to you ?? shd i go to school tmr ??
