I HATE YOU!.

♥Tuesday, July 29, 2008,

Refresh-d.

Do you know that I dreamt bout you last night and it’s a sweet-est dream I have ever had in this few months… Seriously I do not have any hopes on you already... I wanted to call you in the middle of the night all of a sudden... But in the end I never... I just simply force myself to sleep.. I woke up smiling .. but its just a dream .. I said let go but deep inside I am still hanging on .. its killing me cos there are nothing I can do..I know it is wrong for me to like you already but I cannot help it .. perhaps is the dream … the dream… the tender kiss that you gave me still stays in my head… I just cannot simply forget it how ? can you teach me ? I think you won’t ..

I am just feeling lost !! LOST !! you know can some one help me.. Now I truly realize how suckie is it to have a relationship I rather me 暗恋someone than living in the memories of a relationship(to be true we dun have much memories just the little things I see and I will just bu zhi bu jue think of you).. .. I wanted to let go or totally forget this part of my life but I simply cant.. why why why must I get into this ..

Haa my prayers are answered she msg me today after school.. she broke her leg.. According to logic I should be happy to hear that .. I should be saying serve you right… but I DID NOT maybe is because of that dream that I have ba.. I should not be text-ing you now de lor .. I felt so wrong but I just cannot resist the temptation this time after that dream that I have.. I just simpily feel so sad sad for myself sad for what I am doing I feel that I am stupid real stupid..